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Well I received my decree absolute through the post, I knew it was coming, I knew that it was well over due to happen but when I read that letter I'll be honest first thing I did was cry. I told myself to stop being silly I told everyone it was just because I knew my daughter would feel emotional about it. However, I was also a little sad for myself. The worse thing is at the end you can't help but look at the beginning. He was my first boyfriend, he was my best friend and we were very happy, sometimes, but often we weren't we were so young and trying so hard. But financially we were always counting the pennie's and there were never enough and so rather than working together we started to resent each other. Eventually we had both had enough and we split very amicably 5 years ago. This morning when I received the letter, I first beat myself up emotionally telling myself I should have tried harder not given up so easily. Then I started to wonder what my life over the las

Well I seem to be very good at going off track, don't even see it coming and then it hits me like a ton of bricks. I have been wondering why this happens and at first I came up with nothing but decided to dig a little deeper. Ask a few more searching questions to see if I can come up with any better answers. The reason I start being good is that I want to be thinner, I want to be fitter, I want to feel healthy. I want to be a good role model for my daughter and encourage her to eat things that are going to be good for her. An for a spell I manage very well, I eat well, I exercise and I feel good. Then without any thought I eat one thing that is rubbish, then another and before I know it I have had a week of eating rubbish and I feel rubbish. The question is why? The only thing I can think is that I do it to block up a dam. Not always a bad thing but I do it to distract me from what I am feeling.I do it so I don't have to deal with stuff happening, the washing, the drying, the

This is the first time I have added a picture to my blog so if it doesn't work then this reason explains why. What's rocking my Friday well obviously my friend's hen party which was last Saturday night really good especially without the alcohol. My new red hair which has cheered me up no end, I'm happier when I'm different I feel more like my old self lol. Music always a blessing, this week I have listened to lil Wayne, Die for you, brill song if you get a chance have a listen  (sorry about the swear words). Kesha, We R Who We R which is such a good dance track. An one of my old favourites Metallica, Whiskey in the jar. Another blessing my new phone, HTC desire HD which I love and at every moment keeps me in touch with the whole world with it's internet, friend's stream (facebook twitter for those not in the know) and you tube :) music in abundance! My new printer which has given me the opportunity to upload my above photo! My art journalling, which I have

W. H. Davies Leisure WHAT is this life if, full of care, We have no time to stand and stare?— No time to stand beneath the boughs, And stare as long as sheep and cows: No time to see, when woods we pass, Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass: No time to see, in broad daylight, Streams full of stars, like skies at night: No time to turn at Beauty's glance, And watch her feet, how they can dance: No time to wait till her mouth can Enrich that smile her eyes began? A poor life this if, full of care, We have no time to stand and stare. This popped in to my head as I thought about my life, I spend so much time rushing here, there and everywhere. Sometimes my life seems so busy that I forget to appreciate what's all around me, I forget to really look at my beautiful daughter and to appreciate the young lady she is becoming. I forget to breathe in the fresh air, to look at the snowdrops coming through in my garden. To appreciate the little things, the little m

Well it's a Sunday morning and I have decided to pick myself up off the proverbial floor and cheer my butt up! As they say if you always do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always got. So it is time to change things, shake things up a little! So hopefully this will be a happier post :) I was at a friends hen party last night and I honestly haven't laughed so much! I danced my butt off, I took photo's of a man who arrived at the hotel in a Trotter's Independent Trader van dressed in a flat cap and sheepskin coat with a blowup doll (I didn't ask about that). I attempted every dance move that has ever been created and created a few new one's myself. I think people's favourites seemed to be the Nosferatu (creep, for short) the running man, the grapevine and my personal favourite the pointy finger dance! An all of this was done without a drop of alcohol passing my lips! Benefits of no alcohol means no hangover, no lost possess