Today has been even harder!
Okay, so today has been one of those days where, wherever you go there seems to be chocolate and nice things to eat. An you can't eat them and you are so stressed you want a glass of wine to de-stress and you are in need of a big hug from the man of your dreams that is laying next to you on the sofa. But then you realise you are healthy eating so no chocolate and you are teetotal so no wine and you are single so no hug!!!
Wow when those days arrive you don't quite know what to do for the best! Well I have had one of them and they are tough, today has been tough and the negative voices have been loud and they have been saying all sorts. Like "You should just eat what you like and enjoy it", "Have a bottle of wine that will make you feel better", "It's horrible being on your own, you should just do all the things you want as you deserve it"
Then I made a decision, I decided to stop feeling sorry for myself, I decided to give myself a break in the right way. I decided the only way that this is going to work compared to all the other times is if I do things differently. As a famous philosopher once said the definition of stupidity is doing the same thing over again and expecting a different outcome!
So I didn't break I didn't eat or drink anything that I shouldn't, I didn't wallow I got on with things, I have done nothing life changing but neither have I sabotaged my efforts so far. What this means is that tomorrow I can have a better day and not beat myself up with a big stick about having made a big mess today.
Instead of feeling pants I did positive things, I treated myself to some new craft bits :) and a printer! So my plan for the weekend is to get it set up and then use it to communicate with the world so in effect you can give me a big hug whenever I get a kind word or a nice comment!
I'm going to journal and then put pictures on here so you can see it. I am going to take photo's of my achievements, places I go, people I see. Will post the pictures of me trying to reach my new challenge Sheffield half marathon in May, only 13 miles easy lol. Will keep you posted.